I can't stand watching people looking sulky, looking quiet, alone in the corner, where everyone else is having fun.I hate it when the rich people talk so loud and laughing so hysterically, where the poor people are mourning in hunger.I reject having any connection with people that accept bribes, they are sick and dishonest.I angry at wars where kids are killed, without homes, without a shelter.I insult people with big mouth, but never get any works done.I against abortion, how could they destroy such tiny foetus breathing inside their wombs.I accuse the decision-maker, for their injustice, stupidity, deceiving monster.I dislike favouritism, who are they to point their fat nose on the air like that.......
Protest! Protest! Protest! (I must say peoples are ugly at times!)
Last night, I slept late...
only manage to close my eyes
about 1pm after midnight
Was there dreams
Going on my minds
I can't remember a thing
really...
I reckon is one of those day
Woke up with self-pity
Filled with humility
Total disoriented...
What on earth was I doing here
Why couldn't I just died flat in my dreams
To hid the facts from the early sun...
But it's part of life...
I told myself
It's scribble on my head
That it wasn't so bad
Things would happened
No matter how it is conducted
It's human
It's what I have to walked upon
After being squeeze out from my mom's vagina
Involuntarily
I finally dropped on my knees
Realized my life
is a total screw-up
I needed a lift-up
So I pray this morning,
"Lord, deliver me!"
"Lord, help me out!"
"Lord, get me out of my freaking life!"
"......"
And deepest of me
Knew exactly
I needed that outburst
To prevent the craziness
To ruled over me And He knew that too......Written by Felix Chai 4th August 2006



Have you tried a look out from the airplane window? You can see beyond the reach of clouds, pouring out all over the sky, in million of layers. I always enjoy sitting next to the window, where I can have the best views of the sky, the light, the awesome creation of God! I love to imagined myself, flying unattached on the sky, freestyle, make joy with the air of winds, that carried me up and above......next time when you booked a flight, make sure you asked for a window seat! (You will love the look out!) Have abundance of joy today!
To laugh is to risk appearing the foolTo weep is to risk appearing sentimentalTo reach for another is to risk involvementTo expose your ideas, your deams, before a crowd is to risk their lossTo love is to risk not being loved in returnTo live is to risk dyingTo believe is to risk failure~But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. The people who risk nothing, do nothing, have nothing, are nothing.They avoid suffering & sorrow, but they cannot learn, change, grow, love, live.Chained by their attitudes, they are slaves, they have forfeited their freedom. Only a person who risks is free.
Looking upward....Today she is visitingI was expectingShe came upon me withher heatsher warmnessher temperShe brighten up my soulAwaken my spiritShe brought the very lightupon this worldof natureof livingof loveShe opened up my visionIlluminate the living thingsShe carried her tearsto blend withthe airthe skythe cloudRainbow was ensembleWith the drizzle Her love for meSung in a lovely tuneI put up my smile and she smile back......Written by Felix Chai 25th July 2006