Nightmare....

Last night, I slept late...
only manage to close my eyes
about 1pm after midnight
Was there dreams
Going on my minds
I can't remember a thing
really...

I reckon is one of those day
Woke up with self-pity
Filled with humility
Total disoriented...
What on earth was I doing here
Why couldn't I just died flat in my dreams
To hid the facts from the early sun...

But it's part of life...
I told myself
It's scribble on my head
That it wasn't so bad
Things would happened
No matter how it is conducted
It's human
It's what I have to walked upon
After being squeeze out from my mom's vagina
Involuntarily

I finally dropped on my knees
Realized my life
is a total screw-up
I needed a lift-up
So I pray this morning,
"Lord, deliver me!"
"Lord, help me out!"
"Lord, get me out of my freaking life!"
"......"

And deepest of me
Knew exactly
I needed that outburst
To prevent the craziness
To ruled over me

And He knew that too......
Written by Felix Chai 4th August 2006